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I'M BEEN SO TIRED LATELY! EVERYONE SEEMS TO BE BUGGING ME ABOUT WHAT I'M GOING TO DO AFTER I GRADUATE! I'M SO FUCKIN STRESS FROM JUST GETTING MY GRADES UP! I HAVEN'T PARTY IN SUCH ALONG TIME I ACTUALLY MISS PARTYING AND GETTING FUCK UP! I'M TIRED OF WORKING AND SCHOOL! I'M TRYING SO HARD TO QUIT SMOKING!!!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S GONE! I FEEL LIKE ANY MOMENT I'M GOING TO WAKE UP FROM THIS DREAM! I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW GOD CAN LET SOMEONE SO YOUNG DIE! NO ONE WOULD OF THOUGHT THIS WOULD EVER HAPPEN IT'S LIKE IT AFFECTED THE WHOLE COMMUNITY! YESTERDAY I COULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT HIS PARENTS! I KEPT THINKING WHAT IF I HAVE GONE WITH THEM WOULD IT HAVE STILL HAPPEN! IT HURTS TO KNOW HE WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GRADUATE OR THAT I WILL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN! I'M SO GRATEFUL THAT BRANDON DIDN'T DIE!I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF I KNEW I WOULD NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN AT WORK! DANIEL I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER GET TO READ THIS, BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND I WISH I WOULD OF GOT TO SEE YOU ONE LAST TIME!

I'M SO TIRED OF SCHOOL AND WORK!I FEEL LIKE THAT'S ALL I DO ALL DAY! GABE CAME BY MY WORK WITH JESSICA LAST NIGHT! I COULDN'T STOP LOOKING AT HIS BUNDLE OF SOCKS HE HAD IN HIS PANTS!

I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS GUY,MY FRIEND NATHAN DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I TALK ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME AND IF WE NEVER DATED WHY I'M SO INTERESTED. I DO WANT TO BE WITH THIS OTHER GUY, I REALLY CARE ABOUT HIM AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO SOME MUCH! I ALWAYS KNEW WHAT I WANTED UNTIL I MET THIS GUY NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT! TO I WANT A BOYFRIEND OR DO I WANT A FLING! SO ANYWAYS I REALLY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING THIS WEEKEND BESIDES HANG OUT WITH MY FRIEND MARTIN AND TRY AND KEEP NATHAN FROM LEAVING ME FOR 5 WEEKS! OMG I'M GOING TO MISS HIM!

WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING YESTERDAY! SHIT SHIT SHIT! FUCK THIS NIGGA NAMED FONZY!WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT WHAT DO I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T STOP SMOKING!

OMG! I FEEL LIKE SUCH A SLUTTY BEAR!!!I FEEL SO GUILTY NOW! I'M SO CONFUSED!!!ALL THIS WEEK HAS BEEN WEIRD MY FRIEND I HAVEN'T TALK TO IN LIKE 2 YEARS FOUND ME ON MYSPACE I'M SO HAPPY CAUSE I MISS THAT GUY! HE CALL ME YESTERDAY, I HAVE SO MANY THING I WANT TO SAY TO HIM! I'M STILL IN SHOCK THAT I'M ACTUALLY TALKING TO HIM AGAIN!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR HIM CAUSE WHEN WE STARTED TALKING TO HIM HE WAS INTO A LOT OF DRUGS AND NOW HE'S CLEAN AND GETTING HIS LIFE TOGETHER! (FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU!!!)(IF YOU EVER READ THIS I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT I'M HAPPY FOR YOU AND I'M GLAD YOUR BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN!)

MY HEAD HURTS AND I'M HUNGOVER! I'M CALLING IN SICK TODAY!